When I was little I was always waiting for something. The next fun thing could never come soon enough. I was always counting down the days until that big event, whatever it was. A year was like a lifetime and anything that was more than a week away felt like too long to wait. I remember thinking a week was a long time, but now even things that are a month away sneak up on me.
As I’ve gotten older time just seems to be moving faster and faster. Even my birthday comes out of nowhere and I wonder “How did a whole year pass already?”.
Sometimes I just want to stop everything, sit still and just think. And not worry about being late for this, and not stress about getting that done, and not feel like no matter how much you do you’ll never be able to get everything figured out.
Face the fact: You’ll never get everything figured out.
The thing is, if I already know that, I don’t have to stress about it anymore. And then I can just move on with my life knowing that it’s never going to be perfect, but that’s fine. Life is crazy. And as much as I would love for time to slow down to what it used to feel like when I was little… it’s not gonna happen.
Honestly I’m just rambling because I have nothing else to write about right now. So here is one last bit of rambling and then I’ll be done:
The point that I’m sort of trying to make is that life is a train. The older you get the faster everything starts to move and just about now I’m getting to a point where I’m too focused on all the things that I’ve missed and I’m not focusing on what is right in front of me. I’m hoping that some day this train will start to slow down but right now maybe I should just slow down. Because really there’s no reason for me to run around trying to do everything. I know I can’t. So maybe I should just focus on what’s on the train. The things that aren’t moving so fast. And if I look out the window I’ll look at how beautiful the scenery looks as it races by instead of always thinking about the view I just missed.
If anyone understands what I’m trying to say then wonderful! But if not… that’s fine to. I just write. I just dream. Half the time I don’t even know what I’m trying to communicate.